Monday, March 29, 2010

Project B, § 5: There's more...

So, I f i n a l l y added a few bits to the legs of my outline.

What I had to say seemed to fit there: they both regarded (not) going places.

At our last documentation day, Monica asked me what a secret was, since it often is seen as being about shame. Her question got me thinking about why I keep secrets, and whether secrets mean that no one--aside from yourself--knows them, or if they are secrets to everyone except for a small number of folks.

This then brought me back to my initial question in my research about secrets, or our "darker side": In the process of encountering our shadow/secrets, when is it that we move on? Is it before we put it out in the open? Is it after we tell others, or does it take even longer? Many might say that by telling other people, it's better because you might find others that share your trouble or have a larger support group.

Through this process *NEWS FLASH* I have found that, for myself, it may depend on the secret. Some of them, my husband doesn't know yet but I intend to tell him soon (i.e. next week when he's back in town). Some of the secrets on my outline I told him before I wrote them down, or the day after, but I was still coming to terms with them. Does that mean they're still a secret, since he knows? To me: yes, because there are reasons I don't tell other people about them.

Is this a social thing?
Is this an emotional thing?

These questions remind me of our clients and the counseling relationship, and relationships in general: People tell us things the way they do for a reason, and there is a reason that some things are shared and some things are not.

1 comment:

  1. I love that the content of your work is beginning to really envelope the asking of these questions. I also wonder a lot about our imagination and how things can grow from our imagination that become secrets, from ourselves as well as others.

    Sometimes they are fun or silly or sweet but they become things we would not want to share because they would make us more visible and therefore vulnerable.

    SOOO interesting this work!


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